Unemployment day 6...

I took the weekend off, shoot me. I don't think it counts anyway because I usually don't do anything on the weekend anyway. I went to a birthday party at the Joseph friday night and Saturday a friend of mine made me dinner and then we got pissy drunk, it was a good time. Tonight I am going to see a man about a bridge... No, meeting up with a woman who has a kick ass funk band and owns a bar called Goodbar down by my college to see about setting up some gigs. I am finally out of the synch where I am up early so that is good, now I can enjoy the nights.

I spent a little cash over the weekend, but it is unavoidable, I just have to be careful. I bought a pizza so I can put off grocery shopping for a day or two. Have to go to the rez tomorrow for gas and smokes, but that will be my big running day for the week. I also have to remember to stop in at school to get my book deferment set up cause classes start next week. I wish I knew how long I was going to be off so I could take more classes or whatnot, but the risk of not knowing is too great so I will just keep plugging away at part time. Short one today, I have a spice rack to mount to a wall that isn't supposed to be mounted to a wall so there is that... goddamn hippies...

Unemployment day 3...

1056- been up since 0830 cause I finally had to shovel for the first time this season. Glad it held off so long, still pissed and hate snow. Then I tried to find a problem with my bathroom wiring, but the jackass that did it made such a mess out of it I need a few hundred dollars in testers that I do not currently have to do work I would charge over 50 an hour for due to the headache.

Attire- Sweats, had real clothes on to shovel and have a birthday party to attend later so I will have to make myself presentable... goddamnit.

Alcohol- Bought a bottle of rum last night to cure m boredom, it kinda worked and now I want to build a Rube Goldberg Machine. Trying to avoid the light beer.

Gas- half a tank, baby! Only drove 3 miles yesterday. This weekend will eat some gas though.

Money- 38 dollars less, I bought a huge ass bottle of rum and some soda to go with it. Ordered chicken wings, but I had 20 in my wallet I didn't know about so score on that.

Food- I also got a sub so I have half of that for today and maybe pasta for later, need to go grocery shopping.

Smokes- stayed under a pack yesterday, will have to go to the rez on Monday or Tuesday probably.

Entertainment- Assassins Creed 2. Played about 9 hours yesterday, will probably do the same today unless I take a nap this afternoon.

Status- Still bored, pissed cause the bathroom isn't working, the guys who fixed the shower are the worst plumbers ever and I think one is severely mentally retarded. I don't have the testing equipment I need to fix it without ripping the walls apart or just running new lines and I rent so fuck that. Not doing it for anything less than 65 an hour and that won't happen so I am safe.

Outlook- 4, Not looking forward to next week with not getting a check and having to pay for some shit I need, think I will spend the weekend at a friends house where the bathroom works and the shower hasn't been cobbed together by a retard. Going to try to have a drunk but cheap weekend, I may be able to pull it off.

Unemployment day 2

Really? A show called shipping wars? What could this possibly be about? The trials and tribulation of putting shit in a truck and driving it? Holy fuck, you have got to be fucking kidding me. I have been watching netflix for so long that I forgot how fucking stupid commercials are and half the shows on tv. Anyone with funny pictures, send them my way, I need some entertainment.

Time- 0916 Apparently the guy fixing the shower thinks that 1100 and 0830 are the same time...

Attire- Sweat pants and a NASA t-shirt commemorating the space program, because, ya know, they got laid off too.

Alcohol- 14 cans of beer, goddamnit I hate light beer. 1" of Soco, 1/3 bottle of rum.

Gas- Half a tank, still good.

Money- 500, Last paycheck cleared and I paid my car payment that was forgotten about last month. Have to start figuring out which bills to pay this month, will probably be car, ins, rent, and phone. I really hate light beer. Those are the most important ones.

Food- Thinking of going to buy some cereal. I could also just try to live on ensure shakes to see what happens, not sure if that would be too expensive though. I have some bacon I can make and some frozen waffles that are covered in ice by now. Did taco's instead of chicken yesterday and ate too much because I was bored. I want pizza and wings, but will need to find someone to split it with first... I wonder which is better, living on cereal or meal shakes?

Smokes- Almost half a carton, didn't have too many yesterday but I found some for 10 a carton so will make a road trip this week sometime to replenish.

Entertainment- Assassins Creed 2 at some point. May try to see how many times I can get drunk and fall asleep in a 24 hour period. Any tips for fun experiments such as that would be appreciated to curb the boredom.

Status- Bored and wide awake. Cheap wings tonight at the bar, but I am worried about spending money. The weekend is coming up and the normal people with jobs may want to do something this weekend and I would like to try and participate. Goddamnit I really, really hate light beer.

Outlook (out of 10)- 6, Spazzed about money, but realize I have to spend some to live and not go completely fucking insane. Some bills will just not get paid regularly for a while, but those will probably just be credit cards, they will live and maybe the apocalypse will happen soon and wipe out all computer and debt records just in time. School starts in a week and a half so that will be something to do a couple nights a week.

Unemployed

Fuck.

Double fuck.

So in the last four weeks, I have shelled out about 1800 in car repairs cause I still am paying for the car and see no other options, forgot to make a car payment last month because I was too caught up in xmas shopping, and I was laid off yesterday. I am already behind on bills and have no savings, no available credit and have used my overdraft protection to fix my car. Fucked doesn't even begin to describe this situation.

I went off my meds a couple months ago and was doing pretty well up until this last couple weeks. Oh, and the first 1000 dollar car repair, my car broke down on xmas night dropping off a friend after a party and the tow truck driver made me walk home a mile from the repair shop at 0500 in the freezing cold, thanks asshole.

I am going to try to keep a running daily update on my unemployment for those playing along at home. The preceding is the groundwork to see where I am starting this off and what will ensue...

Day 1.

1055 and I am already bored. I went to the Union Hall and signed the book and turned in all my paperwork. I have stuff I am supposed to turn in every month and haven't since last April, they looked a little pissed when I dumped it all on them. They told me it could be a couple days, could be a couple months but I am guaranteed to go back to work so at least I have that.

Attire- Jeans and a thermal, only because I had to leave the house to go to the Hall.

Alcohol- I have an inch of Soco, half a bottle of Rum Chata (some cool shit that tastes like cinnamon toast crunch), and 22 cans of beer, but it is light beer cause I was not paying attention and tastes like water. Drank 8 last night before I started to even notice it, I fucking hate light beer.

Gas- half a tank.

Money- technically less than zero but I deposited my last paycheck yesterday and it will pretty much all be gone when I pay the bills I could't last week because of the second car repair that cost 860.

Food- had cheesecake for breakfast and some coffee, lunch/dinner will be my last chicken tit with breading and rice.

Smokes- half a carton.

Entertainment- Netflix or maybe a video game, probably a nap this afternoon.

Status- Sober.

Outlook- (out of 10) 5. I get no paycheck next week and when unemployment kicks in, the nest I can hope for is 405 a week and will be screwed on taxes next year. I usually make 557 a week so this will take some adjusting and figuring. I do have a promise to be back to work at some point and I have student loan money coming in probably near the middle of February. Waiting for papers to come so I can do my taxes, but those won't be here for at least a couple more weeks.

Redundantly repeating myself, over and over again...

First off, I have a few fuck you's to lovingly hand out to the masses. I seem to have not gotten my point across yet that I do not appreciate and am not willing to either chase a girl or play some kind of game where you act like you don't want to talk to me to see how far I will go and then play hot and cold with me. If you want to be around me, goddamn say so and if you don't, say. fucking. so. If all you want is a shag, once again, say so and we can talk. If you just want to hang out and have a beer, I think you should say thats what you want and do exactly that. Oh, it doesn't help if you get blitzed on the first date and tell me how everyone says you are a slut and how funny and cute you think it is. That doesn't go much for earning you any kind of respect and will just get you the same treatment from me. If you act like some drunk fuck toy, you will be treated accordingly. You are not allowed to complain about it or try to pretend you are anything different.

Birthday's... you get a giant fuck you. I do not need a reminder that I am officially old. You already took my hair line and mounted an offensive against the colour of my hair, don't rub it in with the number game.

Next group of people that need to be raped with a rail road spike are the religious right. What kind of sense does it make to rally against abortion, but execute retarded people and cheer for people to die because they can't afford health insurance? And what goddamn person that claims to be a patriot would boo a soldier just because he is gay? He takes up arms and is willing to die for you fucks. That is the end of my political rant.

So, I am turning 30 in a few days... not sure how to feel about that or what to think. Am I old? Not old enough? Should I have accomplished more by this point? Am I supposed to have the house with the fence and the dog and be getting ready for my first divorce? Should I have a good career making 100k a year by now? I feel like I haven't gotten very far. I am still in school, only make 19 an hour, am single, rent, don't have a dog (but a cool cat!) I have friends that have some or all of these things, am I not as good as them? Am I a failure? I am glad I don't have kids yet and I haven't found anyone I can put up with long enough or that can stand me to get married. It's hard enough to wither get a second date or want one lately.

I almost forgot, a giant fuck you to insomnia. You suck fetid donkey balls. Let me fucking sleep so I am not a damn zombie unless I am slamming coffee and the like.

For my birthday, I will be setting up shop at my favourite local bar, Broadway Joes. I should arrive Friday early evening and be there until Sunday morning. The bar serves food and has a can so I should be all set. If fortune smiles upon me and I have Friday off from work, I will start Thursday night.

You think if my cat dies and I plant her in the yard, new cats will grow? Or would I have to do it while she is still alive? What if she comes back as a zombie cat? That would kinda blow, but it might be kinda cool...

Time to try the whole sleep thing again, farewell gentle reader. I can never say how much I appreciate you reading this useless crap time and again. I love you all and hope my posts get better or at least more entertaining. Hoping to have a good story after this weekend. Take care and go have a damn beer, sobriety is for hippies and sailors!!

Cheers,

me

The way things were...

Hey gang,

Once again, I throw myself at your mercy for my absence, I hope that some of you will see this and read it, even. It has been some time and shit has gone down. I am on a decent dose of my meds so that I am usually ok unless too much stupid happens, which is about every other day...

Back on the hunt for a lady companion and it is not going well!! Ha!!! One broad had the nerve to call me an alcoholic! Can you believe that shit! So, I got wasted and called her a cunt and then she didn't want certain parts of me to touch her anymore (certain parts being all of me.) She wanted to stay friends though, whew! What a relief, you mean instead of molesting your tits on a regular basis, I can just text you and say HI? You mean, when I see you with your next victim, I can't be sad or jealous or care? You know what they should say instead? (this is loosely quoted from my favourite movie called High Strung)... "I don't want anything to DO with you anymore, but it would be great for me if I could feel NO Guilt. It would be great if I thought I could call on you to help me with my life! But, I dont want to see you or hang out with you..." ..."It is like your mom coming up to you in public and saying 'Now remember I lover you very much, but when we are in public? Don't call me Mom, call me Marge.'" Fuck you, you projecting, drug addict of a slutbitchwhoremotherfucker. Lets, just be friends... yeah, but only if I can still have exclusive rights to those cans!! This is also assuming that I was the only one these past few weeks that had access to the promise land.

I have been working in a nursing home these past couple weeks. It is the most god damn depressing and sad place I have ever been in. I listen to these people yell and scream and cry for pills they just took, most cannot feed themselves, it is fucking horrible! My best thoughts go out to anybody that works in one of these despicable shit holes. Speaking of work, I started with the IBEW electrical union local 41 back in Feb. Got a decent raise and upgrade in work conditions, jobs, the whole fucking nine!

I am still in school working towards my mechanical engineering degree, this process will never end and will only get worse, going to school part time sucks. I have been thinking of simpler times lately, when we were younger and dumber. This last section is a few things that just used to be better.

Remember when things didn't suck as much? When all you had to worry about was getting to the game after school and what cd was next on your list to buy. I turn 30 next month, not too sure how I feel about that. I am getting old and I can see it, my hair has thinned out so that I now shave my head. I actually need sleep now. I have no fucking clue what these dipshit kids are doing with their clothes, either. Dress like a god damned man if you are a man. No more stealing your fucking girlfriends jeans and hair style!!

Remember when being in the military used to mean something? When people were proud to talk about their time in? When employers sought to hire veterans? When a woman's deciding factor in dating you wasn't whether or not you served? I seem to notice that we have a horrible rap now and people are afraid of us and not in the good way. The government tells us to beggar off when we ask for the things we were promised in writing.

Remember when a gal liked (and dare I even say appreciated) being treated nice? Instead of getting bored with that pussy shit of a bitch and slipping off with the next guy that looks like they will slap them and call them a stupid cunt. (Fuck you autocorrect! I will teach you the word cunt!!) We used to kick guys asses if we saw him acting that way towards a lady. Now you see it and you can see the look in the eyes of the people around and the girls flutter as the guys look on in awe. I know there is something to be said for the bad boy image, but since when did trying to be nice to someone mean that you are a puss? I don't like to yell at people for no reason and I was brought up to be polite and treat your girl like she was as great as you knew she was/is. It seems like the only people you see in relationships are always fighting like they hate and resent each other. They always go back to the guy that hits them, as well! I know not 100% of the time, save your hate mail, but a lot of the time! I have been told I was too nice before when girls have broken up with me. What the fuck?! Isn't the point to be with someone you like and enjoy spending time around? Someone you don't fight with all the time and you smile when you think of spending time with them? Why the fuck would anyone stay with someone they weren't happy to see? Are we all that intent on being miserable, the victim, the forsaken?

Now, I know I am not the most cheery little fuckin trooper out there, but come the fuck on. Nobody likes being in a bad mood all the time, it sucks. Most of us try to do things that we enjoy, or that will cheer us up. Things like having a beer with a friend, plowing the snot out of some hot piece of ass, listening to music, the list goes on and on. Stop being a pathetic little emo fuck tard and realize that you are not nearly as important as you think you are and shut the fuck up.

Remember when men used to be men? Men drank beer, smoked, swore, knew how to build and fix shit, etc.

We sure as shit aren't getting any younger, folks. Stop wasting your time and find a decent girl or guy. Go find a career or job you don't hate. Go toast a shot with your favorite bitter Jarhead:) Have a blast and don't take no fucking prisoners!!

me

yeah... and stuff

So, it has been quite a while and I have meant to do this for a while. I don't have much to say today, just got back from seeing the girlfriend in North Carolina for a week and have to do all the shit I ignored for a week. I have an 8 page paper to write a draft of, and two chapters of physics to read and do the questions on.

I have been watching football recently, not sure why, but even my local team the Bills are playing decent today. I started the twitter thing up, finally figured I would check it out. I think while during school as I don't have time to do shit, this twitter thing may come in handy with regards to this. You should be able to find me there by my phone number and email, but the screen name is K_Kalishnakov. For some reason they put @ in front of it, guess it just feeds the western ego of being important and all that jive.

School has been killing me slowly, working 40 hrs a week on top of 12 credit hours is not fun as many of you already know. I had to quit the metal band because I didn't have time to ever practice with them and haven't done much with the cover band either. Just work and school, and work Saturday's when I am home to make up for leaving work early for school. I work 6 or 7am till 2 pm, and then class from 3 till 8 4 days a week. Then I come home and try to do homework until I fall asleep at my desk or reading propped up in bed. Next semester will be much the same, although I get to take calc along with an upper level anthropology classes that will take care of a gen ed requirement, and biology, fun wow. The fourth and or fifth is a tossup depending on what my adviser will allow, either sociology or mechanics1. In the fall I should be able to start taking mostly if not all engineering classes, so at least I will finally be taking the classes for my major.

I took a trip in October and I'll tell a bit about the vacation next time, I have to read a couple books and write that damn paper. Follow me on twitter and I'll follow you, I can do that from my phone and it may work out:)

Cheers